Yesterday, we lost the sweet little goat kid that was just born a week ago. He was born just three days after we lost the last one. He was a surprise, too, but we think he may have been born with a defect. He never really got to walking around like he should have and he never really wanted to eat. By a week, other kids we have had were easily eating 4 ounces at a go, several times a day and he would struggle to get an ounce most of the time. At any rate, it is always sad to lose an animal, but especially when it is a baby.
So, the plan has gone a little screwy for the week, but what I have learned is that any plan that doesn't allow for crisis and sadness is a plan that will never work. Yesterday, we made a mad dash to the vet in hopes of saving the poor critter, but we were too late. We spent the rest of the day digging in dirt that is dry and hard and we buried the little goat yesterday evening. We ran back into town for pizza because my dinner plans were just not happening (it takes a lot to warrant us spending two and a half hours going into town for something, but we made it worth the trip by knocking out a few other errands.)
A side note, although not a peripheral issue...I am realizing (on days that I actually have energy, which are few) that I am never going to get my life in order until I figure out why I never have any energy. And it's not a "suck it up and work through the tiredness" type thing. It's a flat-out, dragging my feet, unable to think to the next step exhaustion.
I do know that I don't take good care of myself and that needs to change. I've read plenty of "get-your-health-back-in-order" plans, but they are too complicated for my feeble mind right now. And I have weird food issues. I'm working on them, but in the meantime, I think there are steps I can take that will improve my situation, even if not completely.
1. I don't hydrate well. I drink coffee until it's time to drink soda.
2. I don't eat enough protein. Meat is something I eat because I have to, but if I can get out of it, ("oh, I want to make sure the kids to have plenty" or "You like this better than I do") I will get out of it. The only really alarming thing that time I had miscellaneous bloodwork like ten years ago was the fact that I have low protein. I may have to look at vegetarian options, which work well for me. I used to be a vegetarian, for goodness' sakes. Eggs work, but I have to eat them with something and swallow before I realize what I'm eating. I raise chickens! I should learn to love eggs, but in the year and a half that we have had chickens, I have just learned to almost-tolerate them. At least the kids like them.
3. I don't have a solid sleep schedule (and a backup sleep schedule.) I have varying energy levels throughout the month and different things to do on the farm at different times of the year and I think I'll have to disagree with the sleep specialists on this one matter: having the exact same schedule during a full moon in summer as I do during the new moon in the winter? That's just silly. And during times when I truly need only four hours of sleep, I should just sleep four hours. That way, when I need nine hours, I can sort of coast off of my manic efforts during the, shall we say, full moon.
At any rate, that's the new plan.